We are the Worthless...

The conclusion has been made. The results are clear. If you are infertile you are worthless as a woman.
Now begin the "you can always foster/adopt...." arguments. And they come from those who can and do have children. Guess what, we do not want substitutes, many of us. Because even if we do, the moment it is know our body did not produce it, we are again worthless.

We are not as good as you because we did not endure pregnancy. We are not as good as you because we did not endure labor. We are worthless to you because we can not share the stories and the bonding and etc.

We are seen as bad people because we do not want to hold your baby or be around children, is it your goal to torture us and remind us we are failures to the human race? It must be so, as you continuously shove it in our faces with your stories of how much trouble you had conceiving your second or third child as you stand there pregnant and bitching about the discomfort as if no one else has ever endured it.

We know our husband has only stayed with us because it is too expensive to get a divorce and guilt.

We can hardly even enjoy sex because we can't even use it to its designed function.

We are worthless. And we know this.  We have failed ourselves,  our families, and the human race.
We know we will never be anyone's priority because we are not worth as much as a woman who can conceive but decided not to, or has children even if they are grown. If we were cattle or sheep we would have been slaughtered, at least then we would have been held with some value.

We will sit quietly while you all tell your stories and talk about your children.  We will be nice to them, may even like them. But we don't want to be sitting there hearing these things, being reminded of our failings. 

We are the worthless ones. No matter how hard you try to convince yourself otherwise, you look down on us.